Pain, anger, and stress have always led to one thing for me.
Guilt, Shame, and no self confidence, have led to the same.
Now that the pain is gone so is the anger.
The guilt and the shame remain because of what I had done.
I've always struggled with my own confidence and the stress will always be there.
I cannot let one thing lead to another this time, this year.
My left arm has always been there to take the blame for how I've felt.
And though I cannot promise that it won't happen again, I can try.
The word of God can be stronger than you think.
Don't underestimate the power that it can have.
The power it can give, to help meditate on God through out the day.
If that can happen then how will there be room for all the pain and stress of life?
I cannot promise anything, the only thing I can do is prevent it.
So with the word of God on my arm there will be no where else for it to take the blame.
Promise that it will never happen again? No. Different strategy to fight against it? Yes.
For I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)

I am no longer ashamed of what I have done, its part of me now, part of my story. And whose to say that God can't use this. Whose to say that I should carry the guilt on my back and hide from everyone. If this is to be used to help at least one person then all the pain and hurt I've been through is so worth it.

So, with the Shield and Sword on her wrists, rightousness on her chest, salvation on the back of her neck, and truth on the belt of her pants, God can do wonders through someone who feels like nothing.